December and a Mental Health Update

Happy December!

I’ve been so occupied with university work these past weeks. My favorite course this term is Art History, and I’m thinking of pursuing it further. My museum art project focused on Byzantine art work in Dumbarton Oaks, and it was all sorts of loveliness during the fall. The orange facade from the brick wall and the trees adorned with autumn leaves resonated an almost magical trance-like quality when we visited.

The first week of December dropped down to negative degrees in temperature and it shattered a lot of leaves from the trees outside our home. It was almost a struggle to get out of bed each morning, I just wanted to be buried deep in my bed covers.

Little mental health update: I’ve been adjusting well to my new medications and therapy. I seem to be more inclined with these antidepressants rather than my old ones. And I think my new diagnosis was a lot more accurate, too.

My new therapist is a lot more understanding and I feel more open towards her. My journey has slowly transformed me into becoming a therapy and medication advocate in taking care of your mental health. To be honest, one doesn’t necessarily have to be diagnosed with a mental disorder in order to see a therapist. Sometimes we all need a little help and someone to talk to, someone who listens and empathizes. Also, mental health healing is a trial and error. Take it easy if it doesn’t work perfectly the first time or if you feel as if you’re not ‘healing’ right. There is no such thing as a failure of healing.

School is almost done for this term. I have my final on theological studies on Wednesday, and I just turned in my paper for Art History this morning. I have yet to work on my paper in Philosophy which is due Friday, which says a lot about my work ethic, lol. I can’t wait for the term to end and take part in a lot of Christmas celebrations happening around the city, because I think this’ll be the last time I’ll spend Christmas in DC.

It’s foggy outside, like there’s a sheer of white, opaque sheet covering everything else. A sure sign that snow is coming soon.

Lots of love, Cara

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Cariza is a writer based in Washington, DC. If drinking coffee and writing sad poetry were a personality, it'd be her.

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    Kirsten

    December 13, 2019

    It’s nice to hear about somene doing adjusting and doing good on their medications. I am starting the therapy journey for the first time in about 7 years and am a little concerned about medications as I had such a hard time with them when I was on them before. I am glad to hear you are doing well. I love December and the cold weather, the ice and snow but at the same time it’s tough because of it getting dark so early. I’m hoping to find beauty in the darkness and cold somewhere.

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      paperantlers

      December 14, 2019

      I’m so sorry to hear that, Kirsten. What you’re feeling is completely valid; I was anxious when I went back on them too! But please know that there is no one way or right way to completely adjust with their medications. Healing is a complicated process of going few steps forward and sometimes more back. So take it easy on yourself, okay? And allow yourself to take time with your journey. Sending all my light, Cara.

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