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Trips

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  • Nostalgia in Spring

    January 17, 2019
      Our last stop in Jaime’s visit last year was of course, Washington DC. It’s his first time to visit my home (and also meet...
  • l’automne

    January 12, 2019
      “To the few who love me and whom I love – to those who feel rather than to those who think – to the...
  • My book is in NYC!

    January 10, 2019
      I would’ve never thought I’d someday see my book sitting on a shelf in a bookstore – least of all, a bookstore located in...
  • Mornings and Their Meanings

    February 8, 2019
      I woke up this morning and realized I no longer recognize who was standing in my mirror. I must’ve lost myself completely. In twelve...

Wedding

The English Wedding Blog

  • Nostalgia in Spring

    January 17, 2019
      Our last stop in Jaime’s visit last year was of course, Washington DC. It’s his first time to visit my home (and also meet...
  • l’automne

    January 12, 2019
      “To the few who love me and whom I love – to those who feel rather than to those who think – to the...
  • My book is in NYC!

    January 10, 2019
      I would’ve never thought I’d someday see my book sitting on a shelf in a bookstore – least of all, a bookstore located in...
  • Mornings and Their Meanings

    February 8, 2019
      I woke up this morning and realized I no longer recognize who was standing in my mirror. I must’ve lost myself completely. In twelve...
  • A Month in the Philippines

    February 3, 2019
    Hello, darlings. I’m back with a montage-esque video blog about my one month stay in the Philippines. I didn’t do much, really (as evident from the...
  • Coron, Palawan

    January 31, 2019
      It was our first time to visit Coron, Palawan. None of us were particularly fond of beaches, however, Coron is named as the most...
  • Learning to Be Brave Again

    January 29, 2019
      Hi. Are you okay? I hope so. I hope you know that I’m here, and I’m listening. I know lately you’re tired of crying...
  • New York City (2018)

    January 27, 2019
    When Jaime came to visit me, we spent a week in New York and a few days in Atlantic city with his relatives. Our New...

Lifestyle

Travel and socialising

  • A Month in the Philippines

    February 3, 2019
    Hello, darlings. I’m back with a montage-esque video blog about my one month stay in the Philippines. I didn’t do much, really (as evident from the...
  • Nostalgia in Spring

    January 17, 2019
      Our last stop in Jaime’s visit last year was of course, Washington DC. It’s his first time to visit my home (and also meet...
  • A Bit of Rewind

    January 13, 2019
    Let’s go for a rewind. When I first made Paper Antlers, I wanted it to be a home for my stories: made-up ones from my own head...

Cariza Opana

Author / Moonchild

Welcome to my small space of stories and adventure. I'm on a life purusit towards whatever feeds my heart and soul. I'm currently studying economics, french, astrology, and tarot.

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  • (lost habits) // from the archive #writing #poetry #poetsofinstgram
  • this year has been a long struggle: from dropping to 85 lbs and almost being checked in an institute, having to adjust to medications and going through therapy, to being brave and releasing my first book - a collection of prose and poetry; from what seems like losing (yet again) to finally finding myself, whether it was in witchcraft or in acceptance of everything that makes me who i am, and in the process, relearning to let go of any regrets that came with my decisions earlier in life that led me where i am today.

maybe i could've done better, maybe it could've ended up worse. but this year, despite me spending most of it hiding, lying down, wishing i would disappear, it's been filled with small victories, such as getting my weight back and having some of my dreams become real. and, above all, i can't believe i'm saying this but: i am still here.

and even though i haven't been writing much, updating much, telling much about my days in the philippines, even though i've also had days wherein i felt like my mood would plummet into nothingness or i would feel myself change if i haven't taken my medication - i was living. i was breathing, eating, drinking coffee, going on road trips, making checklists, cleaning the house kind of living. 
and it felt amazing.

i’m smiling a lot more in pictures and unashamedly (!!!) taking more of them. i’m making more plans to do more each day. i’m resting (when needed), and doing a lot more yoga and a lot more meditations. 
i'm okay, you guys. it's become my mantra lately, aside from always (always!) telling myself to be kinder to me. i'm really okay.
  • oh darling thursday. ✨
  • waxing gibbous 🌔 // faith, trust, passive energy. ✨
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i’ve been thinking a lot about steps towards my goals and success lately (or lack thereof). the other night, i had an inkling about where i was years ago and how i was desperate to get out of what was slowly becoming like a path towards a monotonous life - my greatest fear of happening to me. i wanted to live a life of creativity, passion, and magic, and it felt like i was stuck complaining endlessly over repetitive, bitter days: hoping, waiting, wishing for things to change. i realized that a lot of things that happened in my life, small steps towards me crafting it into what i want it to be, started because i mustered up the strength to leave and let go of the situation that i felt was draining me completely and trapping me in.
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so hello, if you’re reading this, if you need an energy boost, a positive affirmation, a push towards living a life you’ve always wanted to have - i hope you find the strength and courage you need to leave whatever it is that is holding you back. and i hope that you can trust yourself enough to make things happen for you. ✨ so recharge your passions, your drive, rework on a project you’ve longed abandoned - i’m rooting for you.
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ps. (page off my grimoire + moon deck cards from @themoon_journal 🖤 the small witch broom on the left is from trader joe’s and it smells like fall! 🍂 i’m in love)

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